Sitting all alone on the balcony, nice cold rainy whether, updating tumblr with a glass of fruit punch. I have a lot going on my mind right now. Kim Carnes’s “I’ll be there for you” breaks the silence of the night.
Somehow, i feel lonely tonight. I don’t know why I feel like crying. But I know if someone were to look at me too closely or speak to me, my tears will stream down like a busted pipe. I could feel the tears brimming like water in a glass that is unsteady and too full. I held em back.
I always understood that life is never easy and that we’ll always face issues but this time i just feel exhausted. I feel like the whole world is on my shoulders and i’ve got no one but myself to turn to.

I wanted him to be here. Not to listen, but just to hold me in his arms. To make me feel calm and at ease again. I’ve not felt calm in a very long time I even forgotten how it felt like.

If only you knew how much I miss you..